Saturday, December 8, 2007

My Farewell Letter

Dear All,

After one and a half year of my stay here in KPMG and in Ireland, I am finally going home to my warm country, Philippines (yey!).

I'll have this opportunity to greet all of you, Advance Happy Christmas!

I will surely miss KPMG, the parties, the weather (?), and all about Ireland when I go home……………..





…. just for a month. :) I will see you all next year!!

Enjoy the holidays! :)



Kind regards,

Jonalyn

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Though really busy, I was so excited yesterday that it was my last work day before my holiday so I sent that letter to all of my Irish groupmates and my three managers. It was really funny that some of them didn't scroll down on the last part of the letter. I received a lot of emails and phone calls from some of them asking if I am not really coming back. Even one of my managers, come to my desk worried and surprised and ask if I am going home for good! haha... It really made my last work day memorable for me and for them!

But seriously, I will surely miss Ireland when I go home! Seriously? Yes, seriously!!

Monday, December 3, 2007

Weekend

There were no Mondays that I haven't heard the question, "How's the weekend? "

So how would I describe my weekend to them tomorrow...

Generally, it's quiet, boring and lonesome...

Friday night
I wanted to watch a movie so I emailed, texted and called all of my close friends but all of them were either busy working or lazy to go out on a cold rainy evening. So, I just worked my ass until 730pm in the office to kill time. I was thinking of watching a movie alone but it was raining heavily and, of course, I am not really fond of watching a movie alone especially on a Friday night so I just decided to go home.

I haven't had dinner when I went home, and since I don't buy any food anymore for the past few days because I was thinking that I am going home soon and don't want it to be just wasted and spoiled, I have no choice but to cook instant pancit canton (which, I think, are already past the expiry date, but I didnt care!) and fried eggs. What a nice Friday dinner!

Luckily, I have a DVD - The Wind that Shakes the Barley -which kept me sane on a lonesome Friday evening. I now clearly understand why most of the Irishmen loathe the British and now I hate the Brits as well! They are just like the Spaniards, Japanese and the Americans who conquered the Philippines and cause the suffering of a lot of Filipinos during those times. Great movie! It made my boring Friday night worthwhile. :)

Saturday
A text message woke me up and made me smile. It's just nice knowing that someone remembers you. ;)

My plan for today - clean my bedroom! I hoovered my whole floor, scrubbed my toilet, did the laundry and tidied my clothes. What an efficient Saturday! :)

I still wanted to go to cinema so I texted Karen if she wants to go but, unfortunately, she had a date (hmmm I smell something!) that night so do I have an option??? I wanted to maximize my unlimited card before I go home and there are movies that I really want to see so I just watched two movies ALONE. Yes, TWO MOVIES ALONE! :( I watched Fred Claus and The Assassination of Jesse James by the Coward Robert Radford (whew! ang habang title naman!) . It's not bad at all watching in the cinema alone. Sometimes lang you can't react to a scene because you're sitting with strangers. Anyway, so I watched movies from 430pm until 930pm without any food so after the second movie I was so starving and I really had a bad headache. :( I was supposed to watch another movie with Abby but my head really ached so I just went home. Ate in Burger King in O'Connell, hopped on the first bus home, took Paracetamol, crawled under my duvet and went to sleep at 103opm on a Saturday night.

Sunday
Sunday was usual. I attended mass, shopped in Grafton St and went home. Just spent the rest of the day organizing my clothes, my pasalubongs, packing my bags and watching videos on the net.

So that's my weekend! My last weekend in Dublin before I go home.

For the record, I don't feel lonely even I was alone the whole weekend. It's nice being alone sometimes. You can do what you want at your own time, own pace... and of course I am going home in a week so I won't be alone anymore. I might not have this kind of time for myself when I go home because as what Alvin said, "Ikakadena ka na ni mama sa kanya!haha (Your mom will chain you to herself!)"

Wednesday, November 21, 2007

...

it's hard having a rift with someone...
it's even harder when you don't know what's the cause of that rift...


i'm tired of pleasing everyone! whatever I do, good or bad, i can't please them! so I say - "Kung ayaw, e di wag!!"

Tuesday, November 20, 2007

I'm proud to be a Thomasian!

TOP 20 SCHOOLS IN THE PHILIPPINES

This statistics is a result of the study conducted by the Professional Regulations Commission (PRC) and the Commission on Higher Education (CHED), based on the average passing in the BOARD EXAMINATIONS OF ALL COURSES of all universities and colleges in the Philippines .

This study is concluded every 10 years.Eleven schools come from Luzon, two from the Visayas and seven from Mindanao.

1. University of the Philippines (Diliman Campus / Luzon )
2. University of the Philippines (Los Banos Campus/ Luzon )
3. University of the Philippines (Manila Campus / Luzon )
4. Silliman University ( Dumaguete City / Visayas)
5. Ateneo de Davao University ( Davao / Mindanao )
6. Ateneo de Manila University ( Manila / Luzon )
7. University of Sto . Tomas ( Manila / Luzon )
8. Mindanao State University (Iligan Institute ofTech/ Mindanao )
9. Pamantasan ng Lungsod ng Maynila (Manila/Luzon)
10. Saint Louis University ( Baguio City / Luzon )
11. University of San Carlos ( Cebu City / Visayas)
12. Xavier University (Cagayan de Oro / Mindanao )
13. Mindanao State University (Main / Mindanao )
14. Urios College ( Butuan City / Mindanao )
15. Polytechnic University of the Philippines ( Manila / Luzon )
16. De La Salle University ( Manila / Luzon )
17. Mapua Institute of Technology ( Manila / Luzon )
18. Adamson University ( Manila / Luzon )
19. Central Mindanao University (Bukidnon/Mindanao)
20. University of Southern Philippines ( Davao /Mindanao)

"Go USTeee!!!"

Aaaww I miss my college years! Hope to visit my university when I go home! Yey!

Monday, November 19, 2007

Stupid Questions

"Ask no questions, hear no lies! "

True!

It's better to stop asking questions rather than receiving dishonest answers that were only said because it's what you want to hear or it's the right thing to say.

Thursday, November 15, 2007

Where the Heart Is

I'm going home back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.

I'm not running from. No! I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.

But these places and these faces are getting old.
I said these places and these faces are getting old...

So I'm going home.

I'm going home.

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

I was just checking the wedding pictures of former college classmate. I feel envious while browsing every single pictures of her wedding. I was trying to picture myself on the bride's shoes but it just made me feel emotional...

in the verge of tears...

in tears...

Sunday, November 11, 2007

All my bags are packed...



I'm ready to go...

Sooooooo excited! My two bags are all filled with 'pasalubongs'!

Tuesday, October 30, 2007

My Prince



I'm not sure if it's the eye drops going through my brain or the mists from my room's ceiling but whatever it is, thank God, i think i'm coming to my right senses! It was another boring day in front of my laptop when that 'look' caught my attention. Damn! I've realised i was the most stupid woman in the world for being away from him this long. Those pictures melt my heart and made me realise that he's still and will always be my prince.

Happy 125th monthsary, my baby!

Friday, October 26, 2007

soooooo bored!!!

QUESTION: What enjoyable activity can you do by yourself without using your eyes?
ANSWER : It's not what you think, pervert! haha. Seriously, I can't think of any.

I've been visionally impaired for almost two weeks and it's soooooo boring! I can't read, can't watch tv, can't go to cinema, can't work, can't stare(stalk) on the computer! (Ooops!how I was able to post this blog if i can't use the computer??? ssshhh.. this is just for a while,bear with me pleeaassee!) I can't even go out to roam around town or at least sit on the park because it's hard for me to stare at daylight. sigh... All i've been doing for the past few days are sleep, snore, zzzz, snooze, nap, think, stare at my ceiling, contemplate and pray for my eye to get well soon.

And i really hope and pray it will be better soon. it's really hard to be sick when you're away from home, when you're away from your family and my baby. i miss my mom or alvin taking care of me when i'm sick. now, i have no choice but to take care of myself. i have to cook my food, iron my clothes, do the laundry, clean my room etc. even i'm sick. aaaaaaw i have to stop all of this emotional whining because another thing i can't do right now - i can't cry...

Sunday, October 14, 2007

Hahahaha

You Are A Professional Girlfriend!

You are the perfect girlfriend - big surprise!
Heaven knows you've had enough practice. That's why you're a total pro.
If there was an Emily Post of girlfriends, it would be you.
You know how to act in every situation ... to make both you and your guy happy.



hahahaha! I'm speechless! Lol! :P

What Gender is My Brain?

Your Brain is 80% Female, 20% Male
Your brain leans femaleYou think with your heart, not your headSweet and considerate, you are a giverBut you're tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you!

Monday, October 1, 2007

Fortress of Solitude



Welcome to my own world! My new pink fortress of solitude! I just love to stay here all day, all the time, just reading books, watching dvd and browsing the net on my laptop, reflecting while listening to mushy music etc. I like the pink adjustable chair I assembled matched with my pink floral duvet sheets. So girly!haha I love the privacy and the quietness of the room. The bed is too big for me though, it would be better if I have my baby baby to hug me on my sleep. haha.

More pictures of our new house to be posted, soon!



Thursday, September 20, 2007

Power of 3


meet my 3 bearlets ... Eoin, Leith and Seamus!

my bodyguards when i am asleep...

my companions on my big bedroom...

Tuesday, September 18, 2007

Capricorn

I always received this chain email on my inbox. Better post it here rather than forwarding it again and again and annoying the people I will send it to. And also, I like what is said on my sign, somehow it's true. It's just too unfair that Capricorns have the longest years of bad luck than the other signs.

Once you have opened this, there's no turning back. Below are true descriptions of zodiac signs, with traits from a book written 35 years ago by an astrologist predictions. Read your sign, then forward it on, with your zodiac sign and label on the subject line, This is real deal, try ignoring it, and the first thing you'll notice is having a horrible day starting tomorrow morning - and it only gets worse from there.


VIRGO - The One that Waits Dominant in relationships. Someone loves them right now. Always wants the last word. Caring. Smart. Loud. Loyal. Easy to talk to. Everything you ever wanted. Easy to please. The one and only. 7 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

SCORPIO - The Addict EXTREMELY adorable. Intelligent. Loves to joke. Very Good sense of humor. Energetic. Predict future. GREAT kisser. Always get what they want. Attractive. Easy going. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Romantic. Caring. 4 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

LIBRA - The Lame One Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique appeal. Most caring person you will ever meet! however not the kind of person you wanna mess with... u might end up crying... 9 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

ARIES - The Liar Outgoing. Lovable. Spontaneous. Not one to mess with. Funny. Excellent kisser EXTREMELY adorable. Loves relationships, Addictive. Loud. 16 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

AQUARIUS - Does It In The Water Trustworthy. Attractive. Great kisser. One of a kind. Loves being in long-term relationships. Extremely energetic. Unpredictable. Will exceed your expectations. Not a Fighter, But will Knock your lights out. 2 years of bad luck if you do not forward

GEMINI - Irresistible Nice. Love is one of a kind. Great listeners Very Good in the you know where... Lover not a fighter, but will still knock you out. Trustworthy. Always happy. Loud. Talkative. Outgoing VERY FORGIVING. Loves to make out. Has a beautiful smile. Generous. Strong. THE MOST IRRESISTIBLE. 9 years of >bad luck if you do not forward

LEO - The Lion Great talker. Attractive and passionate. Laid back. Knows how to have fun. Is really good at almost anything. Great kisser. Unpredictable. Outgoing. Down to earth. Addictive. Attractive. Loud. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Not one to mess with. Rare to find. Good when found. 7 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

CANCER - The Cutie MOST AMAZING KISSER. Very high appeal. Love is one of a kind. Very romantic. Most caring person you will ever meet! Entirely creative. Extremely random and proud of it. Freak. Spontaneous. Great telling stories. Not a Fighter, But will Knock your lights out if it comes down to it. Someone you should hold on to. 12 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

PISCES - The Partner for Life Caring and kind. Smart. Center of attention. High appeal. Has the last word. Good to find, hard to keep. Fun to be around.Extremely weird but in a good way. Good Sense of Humor!!! Thoughtful. Always gets what he or she wants. Loves to joke. Very popular. Silly, fun and sweet. 5 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

CAPRICORN - The Passionate Lover Love to bust. Nice. Sassy. Intelligent. Sexy. Predict future. Irresistible. Loves being in long relationships. Great talker. Always gets what he or she wants. Cool. Loves to own Gemini's in sports. Extremely fun. Loves to joke. Smart. 24 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

TAURUS - The Tramp Aggressive. Loves being in long relationships. Likes to give a good fight for what they want. Extremely outgoing. Loves to help people in times of need. Good kisser. Good personality. Stubborn. A caring person. One of a kind. Not one to mess with. Are the most attractive people on earth! 15 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

SAGITTARIUS - The Promiscuous One Spontaneous. High appeal. Rare to find. Great when found. Loves being in long relationships. So much love to give. Not one to mess with. Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to everyone They meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique appeal. Most caring person you will ever meet! Amazing in the you know where..!!! Not the kind of person you wanna mess with- you might end up crying. 4 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

Monday, September 17, 2007

there are a lot of thoughts running in my mind right now but can't find the right words to say it...

...too afraid to say it...

Saturday, September 8, 2007

Home sweet home

Finally, after eight months of 'domestic partnership*' with Dina, we are now moving to a new and bigger house! As in, really big! It was a three-storey house with roof garden and garage. One bedroom and one bathroom for each floor that means one floor for each of us (Dina, Abby and me).

And since I am packing my things for the big move tomorrow while doing this blog, I 'll just let the photos do the talking for the mean time. Just bear with the photos 'cause I just got it from the website. I'll post more and better pictures once we moved in.



mini lounge area outside my bedroom on the third floor


transparent ceiling above my bed (can't wait to stargaze! kaso bihira pala ang stars sa dublin. haha)


our living room on the second floor


I'm so excited for my privacy, own space, own bathroom, big closet to fill in with all my clothes, parties etc. and to leave the 'big brother house' haha. Finally, I got evicted! :P

*don't be a pervert, we're not lesbians! we just shared the bed to save rent, nothing sleazy happened. haha :)

Friday, August 24, 2007

I got my UK Visa approval today! Yey!

Scotland here I come! =)

I think I should start offering eggs to St. Claire to give us good weather during our tour! haha.

I'm not feeling good..

My friend Aya always say, "Look good and feel good!"

Damn! How can I look good right now? I'm having pimple break out (thanks to my genes!grrr!). My contact lens are already outdated and giving me headache so I have to wear those nerdy eyeglasses. My hair badly needs a treatment or at least a haircut. And the worst, I feel I'm gaining weight again.

Waaaaaaahhhh! I want to go home to Philippines! I miss Belo. My friend who tried to consult a dermatologist here just told me to wait until I go home instead of just wasting hundred of euros for a bad facial. That means I have no choice. Sigh! I just hope these are just due to stress. I hope to be ready for my close up once I cleared my thoughts with all these stress.

For the mean time, I think I'll just hide on my cocoon before I go out again as a beautiful butterfly. haha!

Thursday, August 16, 2007

Jetset Ready!

Finally, i got my work permit! Yey! That means I'll be legal alien now, I'll have visa and I can have my out of country holidays! Yey!

Im so excited that I dont know now on which country should I go on holidays.

The cheap flight fare back home is very tempting. But Nah! I'll just miss home more if I go home for just a while. Save myself and my money for December.

So where will I go now? France? Spain? Scotland? Chicago?

I want to go somewhere that has bit of sun to experience summer this year. Spain or France might be a good destination for that but my friends here have no travel plans anymore for this year so if I have to go there, I'll just be alone. That's not fun, no one will take my pictures then.

So maybe I'll just go visit my friends in Edinburgh, or in London or in Chicago. I just have to apply for a visa (which is soooo expensive right now) for those countries.

Sigh! Visa! Visa! As much as I want to be proud of being Pinoy, i can't help to hate it having a passport that is 'not trusted' by any immigration port.

Anyway, whatever glitches or expenses, I think I much deserve a relaxing break! :)

Oh! If only I have mates to come with me on my tour. Everything would be easier. :P

Wednesday, July 25, 2007

I'm tired

…of working too hard
…of thinking
… of caring about what other people think of me
…of breaking the silence
…of being a stranger to my own house
…of pleasing and understanding people

But I don’t want to concede, to stop because this is life. This is adulthood. It isn’t just a game I play when I was still a child where I can just say “Ayawan na!”. These are not just Math problems that have answer keys. These are real life trials. And I know this will not be given to me if He knows I can’t solve it.

Monday, July 23, 2007

Is this my life now?

I feel these four walls closing in
Face up against the glass
I'm looking out
Is this my life
I'm wondering
It happened so fast
How do I turn this thing around
Is this the bed I chose to make
It's greener pastures
I'm thinking about wide open spaces far away

All I want is the wind in my hair
To face the fear but not feel scared
Wish I could recklessly love like I'm longing to

I see the girl I wanna be
Riding bare-back, care-free
Along the shore
If only that someone was me
Jumping head-first, head-long
Without a thought
To act and damn the consequence
How I wish it could be that easy
But fear surrounds me like a fence
I wanna break free

Saturday, July 21, 2007

1st Anniversary - June 28, 2007

I've been drafting a post about my first year anniversary here in Ireland but obviously, and as usual, I wasn't able to do it. Blame it to my busy schedules and to an unforeseen circumstance that happened to me which I am thinking of discussing on another blog. :)

Anyway, time flies so fast. I didn't realize i've been here for a year. It feels like it was only yesterday when I was in the airport with the most special people in my life and now I am counting the days to go home and be with them again.

For all of these, I thank God. I know He was always with me for the past year. Never did i get sick since I came here which is so unusual for me being so sickly since childhood. He also gave me emotional strength to overcome the sadness of being away from my family.

I can say this is the best year in my life so far. And I am looking forward for what other experiences, lessons, people to meet, places to go that I will encounter during my stay here in Ireland.

(I still hope to post a more detailed blog about my stay here soon!)

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

Why???

Why there are questions that are left unanswered?

Why there are answers that are questioned?

Why things happen for a reason?

Why do we find reason for things that happen?

Monday, June 25, 2007

Proud to be in KPMG!

+ KPMG Ireland: The Irish Times "Graduate Employer of the Year" 2007. http://www.kpmg.ie/graduatesurvey07.htm

+ KPMG has been recognised as one of the "50 Best Companies to Work for in Ireland" 2007
http://www.kpmg.ie/bestcompanies.htm

+ KPMG is Ireland's first professional services firm to become Carbon Neutral. (kahoy ang kubyertos namin dahil jan hehe)

Wednesday, June 13, 2007

Bliss

I’m blissful!

I have a lot of reasons to be.

Life is beautiful! Life is very good to me!

I am showered with love, with blessings, with luck!

Thank God for everything!

Thursday, June 7, 2007

A Decade

I was supposed to post a blog about our 10th anniversary last May 30th but obviously I wasn’t able to. Aside from the fact that I was busy during the past few days, I was thinking... What do I have to write?

Should I tell our love story? But it will take much of my time to write since a lot of things happened for the past decade and unfortunately though I have it written years ago, I can’t open the file. I forgot the password – stupid me! It might also be ‘kilig’ for me but boring for the readers (as if I have any haha). But maybe one of these days, I will still post our story – if I figured out already what will be a ‘good ending(?)’ for that.

Should I tell how we celebrated it? Obviously, with the miles between us there is nothing exciting about that, right? And truly, nothing unusual happened that day. We just texted and called each other and that’s it - our 10th Anniversary celebration!

But why, suddenly, am I doing this post? Why I am wasting my office hours writing this blog? (That’s the nice thing when you’re manager is on holidays and you’ve finished all your clients!). Well, it’s all because of this….



As the cliche goes - better late than never! I received this card a week after our anniversary. Promise, kinilig talaga ako ng natanggap ko yan! haha. Babaw no? Though late, it came on the day that i really need something to cheer me up. I just realized that at the end of the day it's still and will always be Alvin who can really make me smile. And the more that I realized that he's the one.





So, Happy 10th Anniversary to us! I love you very much, my baby!

Saturday, May 26, 2007

Deja Vu

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You could have been a famous Artist

Who Were You in a Past Life?
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Oil painting, sculpture, photography. No matter the medium, it's clear that an imaginative soul like yours must have been an artist in a former life. With your creativity and originality, you've got a unique approach to the world that just begs to be shared with everyone.

Like the great masters who came before you, you march to the beat of your own drummer and don't follow the herd. You live life by your own rules and aren't afraid to express your ideas. Lucky for all of us, they're great ones. So, keep expressing yourself. You're sure to be legendary!

This explains where all my 'kaartehan', my love for pictures, designs, colors and art crafts, my fashion sense etc. came from. :)

My Grey's Anatomy Counterpart

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You're Dr. Addison Montgomery-Shepherd

Which Grey's Anatomy Character Are You?
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Maybe you're sometimes misunderstood like your Grey's Anatomy match Dr. Addison Montgomery-Shepherd, but it doesn't take long for people to recognize your good heart and your better intentions. From your love life to your work life to your social life, you have a natural prowess when it comes to rising to the top, even if it's a bumpy road on the way up.

No matter what, you're committed to being honest (at least most of the time!), and that always helps you land in others' good graces. Way to go!

I wasn't expecting Addison on my test results. Of course, I wished it was Meredith. I can relate on Meredith's way of thinking, handling situations and falling in love everytime I watch the series. But it seems the result description is all true, it says who the real me not who I want to be.

Thursday, May 17, 2007

Anxiety

I feel something odd today. I keep on ignoring it but i can't, it's conquering my brain and i can't think straight. I can't focus.

I don't know if I have strong woman intuition, I don't know if there is really such thing.

One thing I know, I don't like this feeling of being uncertain, of being in doubt.

Friday, May 11, 2007

Retraction

I think my alter ego was on her illucid interval yesterday and post a confused blog.

Don't believe her! She's just like that when she misses someone. :)

Lucid Interval

I am in denial to admit that I am still discontented with my life. I don’t know why. It’s hard to argue with myself and ask why I am feeling this way despite all of the blessings I have.

"Jhona, ano ba talaga ang gusto mo? Ano pa? "

Honestly, yun nga ang problema, hindi ko talaga alam. Is it normal to feel discontented, to feel there is still missing in me, or shall I conclude, as what Alvin told me, I have abnormal way of thinking.

"E ano ba kasing kulang syo?"

Hindi ko nga alam! sa tingin mo i will write this blog if I know??

"Masyado ka kasing mahilig mag-isip kaya kahit mga bagay na hindi dapat isipin e naiisipan mo pa!"

Yeah! I know that! So what do you want me to do? Get a gun, point it to my head and shot my brain to stop thinking???

"This is pointless, this conversation will go nowhere, just finish this blog and back to work! Ok?"

Ok fine! I am just confuse but i don't want to end up in an asylum because i am crazy talking to myself!

Bye!

Thursday, May 10, 2007

Avoiding Regrets

Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.

By Mark Twain

Tuesday, May 1, 2007

Holidays are Over.... for now?!?

I've been working too hard for the past months, i think I deserve a relaxing holiday in one of the famous European cities but unfortunately I CAN'T HAVE ONE!

Why??!?

Ssssh! don't tell the Gardai but i'm already an illegal alien here in Ireland since 12th April. My work permit as well as my Irish visa expired last 11th April. I'm not overly concerned about being illegal here. I know (and I hope!) our company is doing something to push the process of our work permit/green card. I know (and I hope!) they will not let all the international employees in KPMG to be sent home because of the glitches that they are currently encountering with the employment department.

What my real concern on this is - I have a lot of travel plans for the bank holidays for the coming months but I CAN'T push those plans! I booked flights for Prague and Zurich this May but i think i have no choice but to cancel it. I want to visit the Eiffel Tower this June but i don't think my new permit will be approved before that time.

I was trying to search for other places to visit here in Ireland but they are all the same - greens, hills, gardens and castles. Well, I think all I can do now is wait, enjoy what Ireland can offer me. Because on the second thought, this is a wonderful country! Convincing me or convincing myself? whatever!

Forgive me for the sarcasm.

Seriously, I love Ireland! This is indeed a great country! It's just i really want to see new places. I miss travelling!

Monday, April 23, 2007

My Lucky Charm

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Your lucky charm is a Four-leaf Clover

What's Your Lucky Charm?
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Even if you're not from the green isles, you just might share in some of that luck o' the Irish. The four-leaf clover is your lucky charm. Druids used four leaf clovers to see evil spirits and friendly fairies. If you start seeing magical things however, we recommend laying off the clovers for a while. In fact, you don't even need to possess the actual clover. A necklace, pendant, key chain or tattoo promises the same good fortune of the ancients. Take note brides and grooms—the mere dream of a four-leaf clover foretells of a successful marriage. Actually finding one might mean quadruplets.

Now i realised more clearly why I feel so lucky to be here in Ireland. This is where my lucky charm is. Second to Philippines, this is where I really belong. :P

Saturday, March 31, 2007

the 20 euro cut

Before
After

Finally, after nine months I had my haircut! I love my long hair but I guess it badly needed a haircut. I never been to a salon for any hair treatment for the past months so I have a lot of split ends and also I wanted a new look. So, kahit masakit sa bulsa to spend 20 euro just for a haircut, go ahead! Imagine spending Php1300 for a simple cut e sa pinas e Php50 lang ang cut so that means 26 haircuts. That could be more than the total of number of haircuts i had in my whole life. Whew! That's beauty cost! Hope the 'after look' is worth the expense. You be the judge! =)

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

Apart

You wake up when I go to sleep...

You go home when I go to work...

You eat dinner while I eat lunch...

You're in summer heat while I'm in winter cold...

It seems like we are in different worlds now...

Friday, March 16, 2007

Home by Michael Buble

Another summer day
Has come and gone away
In Paris and Rome (In Dublin, London and Rome)
But I wanna go home

Maybe surrounded by
A million people
I Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

And I’ve been keeping all the letters (emails/text) that I wrote (sent) to you
Each one a line or two“I’m fine baby, how are you?”
Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another aeroplane
Another sunny place
I’m lucky I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I’ve got to go home

Let me go home
I’m just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life
It’s like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
'Cause this was not your dream
But you always believed in me

Oh, I miss you, you know
Let me go home
I’ve had my run
Baby, I’m done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all be all right
I’ll be home tonight (in Christmas)
I’m coming back home

I'll be home, baby...

Work it out!


For the first time in my life, I enrolled in a GYM/Health Fitness. It is really one of my plans to enroll in a gym when i came here. And finally, after eight months of my stay here, I was able to fulfill that long-time plan.

It was our Malaysian friend Di who encouraged Dina and I to join. She gave us a tour to the gym where she's enrolled in. We were really impressed of the place. It's like a five star hotel. Fully-equipped, tastefully designed interiors, clean, strategically located near Temple Bar, and not to mention good looking receptionists and instructors (haha!).

There are also pool, saunas, steam rooms and fitness classes. We can just plunge or relax on the wet areas after a tiring work out. Oh life! I think the monthly euro fees will be worth it for all of those facilities.
Well, i just hope I will have discipline and time to do my workout. In the first place, it's not really the posh place that I am paying my euro for, it's for my health and fitness! (And the cute guys, right Dina? haha j/k :P)

'A workout is 25% perspiration, 75% determination. One part physical exertion, three parts self-discipline.' - www.crunchfitness.ie

Saturday, March 3, 2007

Boys don't cry, Real Men do!

All the while i thought he's alright. I never heard him complain nor grieve since I left. But maybe after eight months, he's just human and can't keep everything by himself. My heart bursted when I heard him cried on the other line. I felt how he misses me, how he longs for me for the past months...

I felt that because I do feel the same way...

Friday, February 16, 2007

...

"Mahirap din pala pag nakukuha mo na ang lahat ng gusto mo, hindi mo na alam kung ano pang gusto mo..."

Thursday, February 15, 2007

Valentines Scrooge

I always hate this day! I can't see the point why are we celebrating it. Do we need to have a day like this to remind our love for a person? If we really love someone, we can show it all year round. right? We don't need a mark on the calendar just to give someone flowers or chocolates or go on a luxurious romantic date. I think this day just makes the loveless people feel more unloved and those people with lovelife but didn't receive anything, disappointed. Wait! I feel i sound like the latter?!? haha

Actually, aside from the fact that I did have a bad memory of valentines day, I really feel the latter. I just feel disappointed every Valentines Day. But it's not really a big deal for me that Alvin is not a 'special occasion' boyfriend. He's an 'everyday' boyfriend. He might not shower me with gifts or surprises but he's been there almost everyday in my life for the past decade taking care of me. Oh! I miss the times that he cooks for me and prepare my lunch for work. I miss watching movies with him while leaning on his arm. I miss shopping with him and he valuing my opinion on fashion. I miss our 'kulitan' and 'lambingan'. I miss his kasungitan when i am careless with what I wear. I miss him doing my laundry while I am still snoring on a weekend morning. I miss those kisses before eating. I miss everything about him!

I guess at the end of the day, not only on this V-day, it all sums up to one reason why I sometimes feel an unexplainable sadness, admit it or not, I miss Alvin very much!

This blog supposedly should be about the author's madness about Valentines Day but we can't blame her! She's mad with Alvin. Madly in love! ;-P

Thursday, February 8, 2007

Sssshhh...

"Silence propagates itself, and the longer talk has been suspended, the more difficult it is to find anything to say"

- Samuel Johnson

Wednesday, February 7, 2007

F*ckin' mess!

i thought i was finished cleaning other people's mess. i just had the sign off for the previous client that was dumped on me but here i am again, continuing another crap, messy, sh*t files of the secondees that left. Grrrr!

i hate this! i f*ckin hate this!

jhona - breathe... one , two, three ... ten!

whew! well, at least i have this blog to whine... i have no choice but to do this job, right?

Tuesday, February 6, 2007

Sometimes...

Sometimes you have to experience a thing to fully understand it...

Sometimes you have to be on a person's shoes to feel what he feels...

Sometimes you have to fall alone to know how to stand by yourself...

Sometimes you have to commit a mistake to know what is right...

Sometimes I ask myself, how often is sometimes?

Thursday, February 1, 2007

Grey Quotes

At some point, you have to make a decision. Boundaries don't keep other people out. They fence you in. Life is messy. That's how we're made. So, you can waste your lives drawing lines. Or you can live your life crossing them. But there are some lines... that are way too dangerous to cross.
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You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales, that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress, prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close you could taste them, but eventually you grow up, one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is its hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true.
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A couple of hundred years ago, Benjamin Franklin shared with the world the secret of his success. Never leave that till tomorrow, he said, which you can do today. This is the man who discovered electricity. You think more people would listen to what he had to say. I don't know why we put things off, but if I had to guess, I'd have to say it has a lot to do with fear. Fear of failure, fear of rejection, sometimes the fear is just of making a decision, because what if you're wrong? What if you're making a mistake you can't undo? The early bird catches the worm. A stitch in time saves nine. He who hesitates is lost. We can't pretend we hadn't been told. We've all heard the proverbs, heard the philosophers, heard our grandparents warning us about wasted time, heard the damn poets urging us to seize the day. Still sometimes we have to see for ourselves. We have to make our own mistakes. We have to learn our own lessons. We have to sweep today's possibility under tomorrow's rug until we can't anymore. Until we finally understand for ourselves what Benjamin Franklin really meant. That knowing is better than wondering, that waking is better than sleeping, and even the biggest failure, even the worst, beat the hell out of never trying.
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Maybe we like the pain. Maybe we're wired that way. Because without it, I don't know; maybe we just wouldn't feel real. What's that saying? Why do I keep hitting myself with a hammer? Because it feels so good when I stop.
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Intimacy is a four syllable word for, "Here's my heart and soul, please grind them into hamburger, and enjoy." It's both desired, and feared. Difficult to live with, and impossible to live without.

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I wish there were a rulebook for intimacy. Some kind of guide to tell you when you've crossed the line. It would be nice if you could see it coming, and I don't know how you fit it on a map. You take it where you can get it, and keep it as long as you can. And as for rules, maybe there are none. Maybe the rules of intimacy are something you have to define for yourself.

Wednesday, January 31, 2007

Always Be My Baby



It's our 116th monthsary! Also the 7th monthsary that we are not physically together. We've been through a lot of bad and good times for almost a decade that we've been a couple. So i am crossing my fingers that we can also surpass this trial of being away from each other.

I miss you very much, my baby! I still and will always love you! Happy monthsary!

Tuesday, January 30, 2007

Me

I've been walking around all day,
Thinking.
I think I have a problem,
I think, I think too much.

I am fragile.

I'm not perfect.

But I am free.

Monday, January 29, 2007

???

I am crazy. I am silly. It's so hard psycho-analysing one's self. I am not so myself lately. Or it might be, this is the real me - unleashed!

Wednesday, January 17, 2007

Another one...

I just received my regularization letter today! Finally! I was really worried for the past few days, baka kasi pauwiin na ko ng Pinas e haha! But again, as another birthday wish granted, I thank God for this.

Monday, January 15, 2007

Doves


In my recent trip to Italy, the one activity I enjoyed most was feeding the doves in Venice. There are a lot of doves all over the Piazza San Marco. You just have to buy one Euro worth of food and you can feed the doves and have your photo taken with them with a beautiful San Marco church as your background. It was a great experience, doing things and going to places I just watched from romance movies before.

But there is one thing I’ve realized about the doves. - They just come to me because they need me, because I have their food but after they ate all the corn that I have or after they had satisfied their hunger, they left me ... alone.

I reckon that’s one dove trait that some people have.

But still I wonder, was it because I have no food to feed them anymore that’s why they left or was it because I did something to send them away?

Saturday, January 13, 2007

True Friend


When we honestly ask ourselves which person in our lives mean the most to us,

we often find that it is those who, instead of giving advice, solutions, or cures, have chosen rather to share our pain and touch our wounds with a warm and tender hand.

The friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing, not curing, not healing and face with us the reality of our powerlessness, that is a friend who cares.

Friday, January 12, 2007

I'm Getting Married!!

Yes! That's really true! I am getting married this December 2007! Believe it or not, I asked Alvin to marry me. Funny but it's really true.

Ewan ko ba kung anong pumasok sa isip ko... but, in fairness, since I asked him it seems the contradictions within me fade out. Maybe the reason why I am very sad lately is because I really miss him. A lot of occasions happened within the last few days and it is the first time that we celebrate it apart. I've been to one of the most romantic places in the world but his not with me. I do really miss him.

Ooooops! wait! Before you freak out and tell this blab to my mom (mahihimatay sigurado yun pag nalamang ikakasal na ang unica hija nya haha!), let me clear things first.... but not now.

I can't finish this blog. This is what I can have for now because of a handful of jobs that are in front of me.

Bitin ba? Pasensya... ;-)

Tuesday, January 9, 2007

Contradictions

My mind thinks that I am happy because the best things are happening in my life but my heart feels otherwise. Can anyone tell me how to get over this contradiction? I am so tired arguing with myself.