i cant sleep. my body is tired, my eyes want to shut but my mind is still wide awake.
as always, im still thinking about things.
Sunday, March 16, 2008
Friday, March 7, 2008
down
im tired...i failed... i screwed...
i need a miracle...
i hope i can still retrieve myself after all of these.
i need a miracle...
i hope i can still retrieve myself after all of these.
Wednesday, March 5, 2008
Frozen
I hope spring comes faster, i am starting to hate Ireland because of winter. It's not friendly for sick people like me who still need to work late.
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After gallons of cranberry juice, all-day sleep and antibiotics, I am starting to recover from my sickness. I can't say i'm in great shape now but I'm feeling better.
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I'm sooo excited for our Paris tour. Not only because of the place but the company. I'm looking forward for our formal night in Moulin Rouge. Haaay... 17 days to go! =)
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I miss home... I miss my mom... I miss my baby... so much!
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After gallons of cranberry juice, all-day sleep and antibiotics, I am starting to recover from my sickness. I can't say i'm in great shape now but I'm feeling better.
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I'm sooo excited for our Paris tour. Not only because of the place but the company. I'm looking forward for our formal night in Moulin Rouge. Haaay... 17 days to go! =)
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I miss home... I miss my mom... I miss my baby... so much!
Saturday, March 1, 2008
sick in the city
i am sick, physically sick.
i've been staying in my bed and entertaining myself with 'sex and the city' dvd since yesterday.
thanks to my 'miranda, samantha, charlotte and carrie' for bringing chinese food for me last night.
in this kind of situation that you are sick, alone and miles away from your family, i just want to be thankful for having true friends on my side.
Well, i am still hoping to get better until tomorrow. I can't afford to be sick in this time of the year i.e. the busy season.
i've been staying in my bed and entertaining myself with 'sex and the city' dvd since yesterday.
thanks to my 'miranda, samantha, charlotte and carrie' for bringing chinese food for me last night.
in this kind of situation that you are sick, alone and miles away from your family, i just want to be thankful for having true friends on my side.
Well, i am still hoping to get better until tomorrow. I can't afford to be sick in this time of the year i.e. the busy season.
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
Lesson to Learn
One thing is clear to me.
You can't know everything you'd like to know.
You can't do everything you'd like to do.
You can't read everything you'd like to read.
You can't have everything you want.
You must hold onto some things and let go of others.
Learning to make that choice is one of the big lessons of this life.
You can't know everything you'd like to know.
You can't do everything you'd like to do.
You can't read everything you'd like to read.
You can't have everything you want.
You must hold onto some things and let go of others.
Learning to make that choice is one of the big lessons of this life.
Saturday, February 16, 2008
Ramblings of a Lunatic
I have 1o1 things to do but here i am wasting my time, blogging for a site that has no reader.
A friend once told me, the good side of living abroad independently is you'll able to know your true self. Now im wondering, is this the real me? A confused, indecisive, carefree and lunatic woman? Is this what Ireland did to me after almost two years? Sigh, i dont wanna know the answer.
It's really bad to be alone with just my thoughts and with my other personalities. By the way, I am a self-confessed schizophrenic. I always feel there are multiple personalities within me. They usually argue with each other.
I wish that my mind is just busy with hedges, derivatives and IFRS so i will not think of senseless thoughts anymore. Oooooppss! Be careful of what you wish for! Erase! Erase!
That's it for now... Boring Friday! :)
A friend once told me, the good side of living abroad independently is you'll able to know your true self. Now im wondering, is this the real me? A confused, indecisive, carefree and lunatic woman? Is this what Ireland did to me after almost two years? Sigh, i dont wanna know the answer.
It's really bad to be alone with just my thoughts and with my other personalities. By the way, I am a self-confessed schizophrenic. I always feel there are multiple personalities within me. They usually argue with each other.
I wish that my mind is just busy with hedges, derivatives and IFRS so i will not think of senseless thoughts anymore. Oooooppss! Be careful of what you wish for! Erase! Erase!
That's it for now... Boring Friday! :)
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
P.S. I Love You
On a country road in Ireland over ten years ago, it was love at first sight for Holly, a lost young tourist (Hilary Swank), and Gerry, a charming local lad (Gerard Butler). Hollys formidable mother, (Kathy Bates), disapproved of the couple, concerned that her spirited daughter was too young for marriage. In the years since, the once fearless Holly has become unsure of her own identity. When Gerry dies with a brain tumor and leaves Holly a widow just shy of her thirtieth birthday, her family and best friends (Lisa Kudrow, Gina Gershon) are concerned that she will never emerge from her takeout container-strewn Manhattan apartment. After weeks holed up watching old movies, a birthday cake and tape recording message from Gerry mysteriously arrives, marking the beginning of a series of letters instructing her to perform unusual requests. With the help of her girlfriends, Holly begins a year of wild adventures and a life journey that Gerry has planned for her, helping her to discover who she is without him and reminding her - p.s. I Love You. (http://www.imdb.com/)
I've watched the movie PS I Love You last Sunday and I would say it's the best romance movie for me, next to 'The Notebook', of course!
I liked it because it was partly shot in Ireland and it showed how sweet and talented the Irish people are. :)
Saturday, December 8, 2007
My Farewell Letter
Dear All,
After one and a half year of my stay here in KPMG and in Ireland, I am finally going home to my warm country, Philippines (yey!).
I'll have this opportunity to greet all of you, Advance Happy Christmas!
I will surely miss KPMG, the parties, the weather (?), and all about Ireland when I go home……………..
…. just for a month. :) I will see you all next year!!
Enjoy the holidays! :)
Kind regards,
Jonalyn
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Though really busy, I was so excited yesterday that it was my last work day before my holiday so I sent that letter to all of my Irish groupmates and my three managers. It was really funny that some of them didn't scroll down on the last part of the letter. I received a lot of emails and phone calls from some of them asking if I am not really coming back. Even one of my managers, come to my desk worried and surprised and ask if I am going home for good! haha... It really made my last work day memorable for me and for them!
But seriously, I will surely miss Ireland when I go home! Seriously? Yes, seriously!!
After one and a half year of my stay here in KPMG and in Ireland, I am finally going home to my warm country, Philippines (yey!).
I'll have this opportunity to greet all of you, Advance Happy Christmas!
I will surely miss KPMG, the parties, the weather (?), and all about Ireland when I go home……………..
…. just for a month. :) I will see you all next year!!
Enjoy the holidays! :)
Kind regards,
Jonalyn
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Though really busy, I was so excited yesterday that it was my last work day before my holiday so I sent that letter to all of my Irish groupmates and my three managers. It was really funny that some of them didn't scroll down on the last part of the letter. I received a lot of emails and phone calls from some of them asking if I am not really coming back. Even one of my managers, come to my desk worried and surprised and ask if I am going home for good! haha... It really made my last work day memorable for me and for them!
But seriously, I will surely miss Ireland when I go home! Seriously? Yes, seriously!!
Monday, December 3, 2007
Weekend
There were no Mondays that I haven't heard the question, "How's the weekend? "
So how would I describe my weekend to them tomorrow...
Generally, it's quiet, boring and lonesome...
Friday night
I wanted to watch a movie so I emailed, texted and called all of my close friends but all of them were either busy working or lazy to go out on a cold rainy evening. So, I just worked my ass until 730pm in the office to kill time. I was thinking of watching a movie alone but it was raining heavily and, of course, I am not really fond of watching a movie alone especially on a Friday night so I just decided to go home.
I haven't had dinner when I went home, and since I don't buy any food anymore for the past few days because I was thinking that I am going home soon and don't want it to be just wasted and spoiled, I have no choice but to cook instant pancit canton (which, I think, are already past the expiry date, but I didnt care!) and fried eggs. What a nice Friday dinner!
Luckily, I have a DVD - The Wind that Shakes the Barley -which kept me sane on a lonesome Friday evening. I now clearly understand why most of the Irishmen loathe the British and now I hate the Brits as well! They are just like the Spaniards, Japanese and the Americans who conquered the Philippines and cause the suffering of a lot of Filipinos during those times. Great movie! It made my boring Friday night worthwhile. :)
Saturday
A text message woke me up and made me smile. It's just nice knowing that someone remembers you. ;)
My plan for today - clean my bedroom! I hoovered my whole floor, scrubbed my toilet, did the laundry and tidied my clothes. What an efficient Saturday! :)
I still wanted to go to cinema so I texted Karen if she wants to go but, unfortunately, she had a date (hmmm I smell something!) that night so do I have an option??? I wanted to maximize my unlimited card before I go home and there are movies that I really want to see so I just watched two movies ALONE. Yes, TWO MOVIES ALONE! :( I watched Fred Claus and The Assassination of Jesse James by the Coward Robert Radford (whew! ang habang title naman!) . It's not bad at all watching in the cinema alone. Sometimes lang you can't react to a scene because you're sitting with strangers. Anyway, so I watched movies from 430pm until 930pm without any food so after the second movie I was so starving and I really had a bad headache. :( I was supposed to watch another movie with Abby but my head really ached so I just went home. Ate in Burger King in O'Connell, hopped on the first bus home, took Paracetamol, crawled under my duvet and went to sleep at 103opm on a Saturday night.
Sunday
Sunday was usual. I attended mass, shopped in Grafton St and went home. Just spent the rest of the day organizing my clothes, my pasalubongs, packing my bags and watching videos on the net.
So that's my weekend! My last weekend in Dublin before I go home.
For the record, I don't feel lonely even I was alone the whole weekend. It's nice being alone sometimes. You can do what you want at your own time, own pace... and of course I am going home in a week so I won't be alone anymore. I might not have this kind of time for myself when I go home because as what Alvin said, "Ikakadena ka na ni mama sa kanya!haha (Your mom will chain you to herself!)"
So how would I describe my weekend to them tomorrow...
Generally, it's quiet, boring and lonesome...
Friday night
I wanted to watch a movie so I emailed, texted and called all of my close friends but all of them were either busy working or lazy to go out on a cold rainy evening. So, I just worked my ass until 730pm in the office to kill time. I was thinking of watching a movie alone but it was raining heavily and, of course, I am not really fond of watching a movie alone especially on a Friday night so I just decided to go home.
I haven't had dinner when I went home, and since I don't buy any food anymore for the past few days because I was thinking that I am going home soon and don't want it to be just wasted and spoiled, I have no choice but to cook instant pancit canton (which, I think, are already past the expiry date, but I didnt care!) and fried eggs. What a nice Friday dinner!
Luckily, I have a DVD - The Wind that Shakes the Barley -which kept me sane on a lonesome Friday evening. I now clearly understand why most of the Irishmen loathe the British and now I hate the Brits as well! They are just like the Spaniards, Japanese and the Americans who conquered the Philippines and cause the suffering of a lot of Filipinos during those times. Great movie! It made my boring Friday night worthwhile. :)
Saturday
A text message woke me up and made me smile. It's just nice knowing that someone remembers you. ;)
My plan for today - clean my bedroom! I hoovered my whole floor, scrubbed my toilet, did the laundry and tidied my clothes. What an efficient Saturday! :)
I still wanted to go to cinema so I texted Karen if she wants to go but, unfortunately, she had a date (hmmm I smell something!) that night so do I have an option??? I wanted to maximize my unlimited card before I go home and there are movies that I really want to see so I just watched two movies ALONE. Yes, TWO MOVIES ALONE! :( I watched Fred Claus and The Assassination of Jesse James by the Coward Robert Radford (whew! ang habang title naman!) . It's not bad at all watching in the cinema alone. Sometimes lang you can't react to a scene because you're sitting with strangers. Anyway, so I watched movies from 430pm until 930pm without any food so after the second movie I was so starving and I really had a bad headache. :( I was supposed to watch another movie with Abby but my head really ached so I just went home. Ate in Burger King in O'Connell, hopped on the first bus home, took Paracetamol, crawled under my duvet and went to sleep at 103opm on a Saturday night.
Sunday
Sunday was usual. I attended mass, shopped in Grafton St and went home. Just spent the rest of the day organizing my clothes, my pasalubongs, packing my bags and watching videos on the net.
So that's my weekend! My last weekend in Dublin before I go home.
For the record, I don't feel lonely even I was alone the whole weekend. It's nice being alone sometimes. You can do what you want at your own time, own pace... and of course I am going home in a week so I won't be alone anymore. I might not have this kind of time for myself when I go home because as what Alvin said, "Ikakadena ka na ni mama sa kanya!haha (Your mom will chain you to herself!)"
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