another senti night...

this is the longest time that i was alone and the more i realised that i really dont want to be alone...

i dont want to be single anymore...

i want to go home to a place where i can see your smile
i want to see new places where we can explore together
i want to eat on a table with food you cooked
i want to watch a show that we can laugh together
i want to sleep on a bed where i can feel your hugs

i want to close my eyes and feel your tender lips...

i want you...

whys??

why there are things

.....that you want to do but you can't?

....that you still do but you shouldn't?

....that you want to say but can't?

.....that you have said but you shouldn't?

.....that you have to let go but you can't?

.....that you still miss but you shouldn't?

oh why?

Feels like 16... again

ok ok im in the mood for a happy blog right now. thanks to youtube! :D

Eoghan Quigg!!!! He's sooo adorable! sooo cute! soo funny! soo talented! in short, sooooo irish! :D

He's always my favorite among the 12 finalists. So sad, he didnt win. But surely, he will have a career soon and maybe couple of years from now he will break a lot of women's heart. Watch out Zac Efron! Eoghan's hairstyle is much gorgeous than yours. lol.

Before, i was still thinking if i will name my first son, Seamus or Eoin. Now i decided it will be Eoghan! :D

Ok, back to my sleep now... ;p

cry baby

haay... i'm becoming a cry baby lately...

i cry just from listening to a song.

"oceans apart day after day, and i slowly go insane..."

i cry almost eveytime i chat with mama.

im crying just thinking of what happening right now....

sigh....i feel sad, lonely, scared, home sick, love sick.

fingers crossed

I never been so scared like this in my life.

I have a lot of plans and I'm not ready for this.

Lord God, I love this, please dont take it from me.

Please...

ebay newbie

i lost my first ebay auction. :(

i've been wanting that LV bag and been thinking how i will look with that bag for the past days and i lost it during the last minute of bidding. grrrr!

im an ebay newbie. soo frustrating.

hmmm why do i have to go through that torturing and frustrating last minutes of auction if i can just go to Brown Thomas and buy it personally? aaah... expect me in the store tomorrow. hmmp!

long longing....

why is it not that easy this time?

i survived a year and a half last time staying here, being away with him...
yet now it's only been a year but i'm already longing for him...

this is not easy... but i have to deal with it.
i have to wait for another few months...
i have to keep myself sane in this cold crazy time.

hugs

i just want a hug to warm the cold nights. nothing more, nothing less.
sigh. i should just go home instead this christmas. yeah, im still whining about this.

i wanna go home!!!!

pissed

it's FAE night and im here blogging...

after bulmers lite, chocolate martini, hazelnut white russian, coke with vodka and another bulmers...im pissed! but i can still remember all i drunk that means i was still good. :)

it was a great night. i would love to stay and spend more time with my officemates but i dont want to go home alone and too late.

seriously, it was fun especially now that i have more friends in the office other than the filipinos. and to be honest, im closer to my international friends now than my filipino friends in kpmg. well, other than my real girlfriends/sisters from EY. it's a different level of friendship with them.

anyway, hopefully i'll spend more time with them in our christmas party. can't wait for that! :)

good night! zzzzzzzz.....

i miss home... that's still what i can say.

i should just go home this xmas. i dont feel any excitement in my december tour. sigh.
i miss it more now that mama went home...

and another sigh...

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i want it now! finally, i decided i want it badly! and i'll do anything to have it. i just hope it's still there for me.

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good night! it's another busy day tomorrow and i'm looking forward for it.