the mind game continues

i...
i can't...
i can't stop...
i can't stop thinking...

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i survived the past nine months...
i've been surviving...
i will survive for the next nine months...

fingers crossed!

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i've been to a place before where I enjoyed so much. It was like a dream holiday which you don't want to end. I liked the place that I still think of going back there.

But I can't because I know I can't stay there. It's just a place for holiday, it's not my home.

...and home is where my heart is.

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sigh

my mind is so all over the place and have a lot of thoughts. i don't know where to start this blog. i don't know how to say it. i just want to pour out everything or at least some of this crappy thoughts before these explode.

but i have no time. and i dont have the energy. and the right words.

and im sleepy. so hopefully next time. i can say it all.

p.s.

i'm lost...

waaahhh!!! i want the script tickets!!!

I'm not moving

I'm currently loving the song especially this part:

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,

And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,

Thinking maybe you'd come back here to the place that we'd meet,

And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.

sweet!

i'M Starting to Love the Band too!

One thing i proved today:

It's always be my baby! It is!

2 days to go! Yey!

Waaaaahhh!!! I can't concentrate! I want to go home!

I cant wait for 9 months! I miss Alvin very much! I want to be with him soon!

Crazy about Greece!

Greece is always on my list of top holiday destinations. I planned to go there this coming winter season but since Alvin told me that he wants his first Europe tour with me to be in Greece. Plans cancelled! I'm saving Greece for him! It will be a year of waiting for me though. But who cares? He's worth the wait.

Ngayon pa lang excited na ko mag-ala KC and Richard kami in Greece. haha!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WwM-21FxqCc

ramblings of a soon-to-be domesticated(?) goddess

i dont know what came into me today that when the clock stroke half five, i cleared my desk, packed my things, rode the kpmg bus and went home. i still have a lot of work to do, deadlines to meet but i feel so lazy and uninspired to finish my work. weird as it may sounds, but i just wanted to go home to cook authentic Filipino food, do my laundry and clean my room. gosh! i am starting to be domesticated.

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when i was cooking, i cant help but think how will my life be if he'll be here. i suddenly miss those times that i went home from work and he's just there waiting for me, welcoming me with warm hugs and kisses and the sumptuous dinner already served on the table. it was usually just a simple dish, mostly canned tuna or pork bbq or fried fish with his favorite fried rice then we ate it with our bare hands but i think i won't trade those dinner with the expensive steaks i had here. those are the best dinner for me because he cooked it for me and i was sharing it with him.

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even myself is wondering what's happening to me lately. i know it's a good thing but i don't know what triggers for me to be this in luuuvvv! there's no day that i didn't think of going home this november or december. almost every night i search for cheap flights so i can go home and be with him. sometimes, i think that this is all caused by the assault that happened to me. my head was hit hard and then it function normally. i told him what happened to me already and he said he wanted to find the girls when he comes here. not to have revenge but to thank them for making me come into my right senses.

here i am again...

it's sleeping time but i'm stuck on the internet looking for a cheap flight this december.
suddenly, i feel like i want to go home.

he was complaining to me that i neglected him the last time i went home. i was guilty of that. i was confused that time but now i want to make up for those lost times. i want to go home just for him, just to be with him.

before i get crazy again....

Longing

Damn! I miss you so much!
I want to be with you soon.
I want you to be here with me.
I want you that these words aren't enough to express how much I yearn for you.

sigh.. i better go to sleep before I lost my sanity.

Good night, baby! I just hope to see you in my dreams.