Monday, March 23, 2009

things to do...

so i accepted it already that i might leave Ireland soon. but before i leave this lovely country, i made a list of things i want to do before i go.

1. watch an irish game in Croke Park - DONE!
2. party the irish way
3. have a photo shoot in all the memorable places in dublin

yeah, not that long list... there's not much to do here in ireland anyway... and i think i've done a lot before... i had all the fun and the time of my life here. a lot of good and bad memories that i will bring anywhere i go. :)

Grand!

it's really great having a break to have some time to unwind, to relax and to just forget the real world.

thanks to our Barcelona holiday, i was able to clear my mind and forget the negative things. i already accepted IT. im fine now. im happy again and just looking forward for the future.

Life goes on...

que sera sera, whatever will be, will be. que sera sera. :)

Sunday, March 8, 2009

a lot of things happening...

a lot of things to decide... to plan... to change.

please give me strength and will to cope up and surpass all of these.

Thursday, March 5, 2009

why oh why

why do i feel confused again?

why am i having all these doubts again? why now?

why everytime i plan to settle, something's happening. is this God's way of telling me, this is not the right thing?

God, im not good at interpreting signs. Please just tell me clearly what's the best thing for me.

Sunday, February 22, 2009

Random things about me

1. Im loving cooking. It's currently my favorite past time. I cant say I'm a good cook but I'm enjoying it and I'm just happy that I can cook something edible.

2. I haven't met anyone my age that has a smaller forearm and fingers than mine.

3. My arms and my shoulders are my favorite parts of my body because those make me feel look skinny even I am really not.

4. I find men wearing colorful stripe scarves cute.

5. I am an internet addict. My day seems incomplete if I dont check the web.

6. I feel that I was an Irish in my previous life or I already lived in Ireland before. When I was younger, I used to have dreams about a place that I havent seen before. The first time I came here, I felt that that place is here and I never had that dream again when I came here.

7. My life is depicted in pictures. I have photo albums that are 3 foot high back home. My face is almost in every corner of our house (blame my mom!). I love taking pictures and of course having my pictures taken. Feeling photogenic. haha.

8. I have tendency to be obssessed. When I like something or someone, I will really really like it. During the time that I like Ryan Gosling, I signed up on DVD rental and rent all his movies, watched it more than once and screen captured most of his scenes. I even ordered online his old TV series.

Imagine what more I can do if it's a real man that i like in my life??? Hmmm....

I marry him. ;-)

Friday, February 20, 2009

the countdown continues...

it seems my blog was invaded for the past few days with the 'other me'...
she's soooo dramatic, duh!

it's time for a cool post! :)

as of today, 86 days to go and im going home! yey!

obviously, im sooo excited so as early as now im planning what i will do then.

1. get married (ehem!)
2. honeymoon (hmmm!)
3. spend time with alvin (aaaww!)

that's it! yes that's really it! contrary to my old long to do list, those are the things i want to do. i dont care about shopping, or my derma, or going to salon or meeting my friends when i go home.

i only want ALVIN, badly!

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

ironic

there are no tears coming out when i have all the reasons to cry.

im falling to pieces...

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

There are loads of what if's, if only's, what could have been's that I asked myself now.
I know I shouldn’t think of these. These just wreck my already twisted head.
There's no point crying on a spilled milk.
Everything happens for a reason.
I just wish that reason will come clear to me sooner.

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

exactly

Forget about the things you don't like about your life -- focus on the hopes and dreams you have for the future. The more you think about your problems or worries, the more power you are giving them over your life. So today, put a smile on your face and be confident about where you are headed. And if you can't feel confident, then just fake it until you do! If you can convince yourself of your value, then other people will be convinced of it, too.

Thursday, January 15, 2009

wild horses



I feel these four walls closing in
Face up against the glass
I'm looking out, hmmm
Is this my life I'm wondering
It happened so fast
How do I turn this thing around
Is this the bed I chose to make
It's greener pastures I'm thinking about
Hmm, wide open spaces far away