Deja Vu

You could have been a famous Artist

Who Were You in a Past Life?
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Oil painting, sculpture, photography. No matter the medium, it's clear that an imaginative soul like yours must have been an artist in a former life. With your creativity and originality, you've got a unique approach to the world that just begs to be shared with everyone.

Like the great masters who came before you, you march to the beat of your own drummer and don't follow the herd. You live life by your own rules and aren't afraid to express your ideas. Lucky for all of us, they're great ones. So, keep expressing yourself. You're sure to be legendary!

This explains where all my 'kaartehan', my love for pictures, designs, colors and art crafts, my fashion sense etc. came from. :)

My Grey's Anatomy Counterpart

You're Dr. Addison Montgomery-Shepherd

Which Grey's Anatomy Character Are You?
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Maybe you're sometimes misunderstood like your Grey's Anatomy match Dr. Addison Montgomery-Shepherd, but it doesn't take long for people to recognize your good heart and your better intentions. From your love life to your work life to your social life, you have a natural prowess when it comes to rising to the top, even if it's a bumpy road on the way up.

No matter what, you're committed to being honest (at least most of the time!), and that always helps you land in others' good graces. Way to go!

I wasn't expecting Addison on my test results. Of course, I wished it was Meredith. I can relate on Meredith's way of thinking, handling situations and falling in love everytime I watch the series. But it seems the result description is all true, it says who the real me not who I want to be.

Anxiety

I feel something odd today. I keep on ignoring it but i can't, it's conquering my brain and i can't think straight. I can't focus.

I don't know if I have strong woman intuition, I don't know if there is really such thing.

One thing I know, I don't like this feeling of being uncertain, of being in doubt.

Retraction

I think my alter ego was on her illucid interval yesterday and post a confused blog.

Don't believe her! She's just like that when she misses someone. :)

Lucid Interval

I am in denial to admit that I am still discontented with my life. I don’t know why. It’s hard to argue with myself and ask why I am feeling this way despite all of the blessings I have.

"Jhona, ano ba talaga ang gusto mo? Ano pa? "

Honestly, yun nga ang problema, hindi ko talaga alam. Is it normal to feel discontented, to feel there is still missing in me, or shall I conclude, as what Alvin told me, I have abnormal way of thinking.

"E ano ba kasing kulang syo?"

Hindi ko nga alam! sa tingin mo i will write this blog if I know??

"Masyado ka kasing mahilig mag-isip kaya kahit mga bagay na hindi dapat isipin e naiisipan mo pa!"

Yeah! I know that! So what do you want me to do? Get a gun, point it to my head and shot my brain to stop thinking???

"This is pointless, this conversation will go nowhere, just finish this blog and back to work! Ok?"

Ok fine! I am just confuse but i don't want to end up in an asylum because i am crazy talking to myself!

Bye!

Avoiding Regrets

Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.

By Mark Twain

Holidays are Over.... for now?!?

I've been working too hard for the past months, i think I deserve a relaxing holiday in one of the famous European cities but unfortunately I CAN'T HAVE ONE!

Why??!?

Ssssh! don't tell the Gardai but i'm already an illegal alien here in Ireland since 12th April. My work permit as well as my Irish visa expired last 11th April. I'm not overly concerned about being illegal here. I know (and I hope!) our company is doing something to push the process of our work permit/green card. I know (and I hope!) they will not let all the international employees in KPMG to be sent home because of the glitches that they are currently encountering with the employment department.

What my real concern on this is - I have a lot of travel plans for the bank holidays for the coming months but I CAN'T push those plans! I booked flights for Prague and Zurich this May but i think i have no choice but to cancel it. I want to visit the Eiffel Tower this June but i don't think my new permit will be approved before that time.

I was trying to search for other places to visit here in Ireland but they are all the same - greens, hills, gardens and castles. Well, I think all I can do now is wait, enjoy what Ireland can offer me. Because on the second thought, this is a wonderful country! Convincing me or convincing myself? whatever!

Forgive me for the sarcasm.

Seriously, I love Ireland! This is indeed a great country! It's just i really want to see new places. I miss travelling!