I have a lot of thoughts in my head right now. I want to create a new post in my blog but I don’t know how to start and what topic will I discuss. I want to share what’s happening in my life right now but hesitant that my reader might misinterpret me. Anyway, just read at your own risk.
· I’ve been missing Alvin so badly lately. After barely six months that I’ve been here, it’s the first time that I really feel that I want to go home because I want to be with him, I need to be with him… but I can’t. I have to wait for another year to go home. I still have to carry out my plan of bringing my parents here first. So I have no choice but to just focus my attention on other things to forget my yearning for Alvin
· The best things are happening to my life but still a part of me is missing. I am not sure what is it or if I know it I reckon I am still in denial to admit that there is really something missing in my life. And I still want to believe that I should appreciate everything I have to be contented.
· I’m very excited to spend my first Christmas away from home, in Italy. Boun Natale!
· I feel that there’s something in me why some people feel so comfortable with me but I think there is also something in me that annoys some people. I don’t know what is it for both but I want to know more about the latter.
· I miss a lot of things and people back home.
· I am still enjoying my independence but sometimes I feel that I am overwhelmed of it and afraid that I might do something that I can’t really handle independently.
This is it for now. I still have a lot of things running in my mind but I’ll set aside it for a moment and focus on a lot of deadlines that I have right now. Oh life!
Monday, December 18, 2006
Thursday, December 7, 2006
Birthday Candles
You’ve read from my previous post what I felt before celebrating my birthday. I really felt that the world is in my shoulders that time. I didn’t really want to celebrate my birthday because I felt that I am going nowhere. I had an interview with a Partner from KPMG Ireland two days before Christmas and I felt that I sacked it because the interview lasted for just fifteen minutes. I’ve waited for two years just to have that opportunity and I am not sure if I did impress the partner to hire me. Worse, two weeks after my interview, I still haven’t heard anything from the Company.
But I had no choice, whatever I do, I cannot avoid my birthday. So, I celebrated it with my family. We ate dinner in one of our favorite restaurants. I pretend that everything was fine that time but if only they could read my mind, they would know that something was bothering me. Until, they told the waiter that it was my birthday and as a complement from the restaurant, the waiters sang happy birthday for me and gave me a small cake with a magic candle. When it was the time to blow the candle, I prayed a simple wish - “Lord, I want to be in Ireland..” As the magic candle kept burning even I continued blowing, I whispered repeatedly that only one wish I had on my silver birthday. “Lord, I want to be in Ireland.”
Just two days after my birthday, out of nowhere, an angel called me to check my yahoo mail. Surprisingly, there was an e-mail in my inbox with a subject, “Offer”. I opened it immediately and after I read it, I almost wanted to jump because of so much joy. KPMG Ireland offered me a job as an Audit Senior. The salary and relocation allowance was laid there. I was really euphoric. This is really a dream come true, an answered prayer, a wish granted. God is so good to me.
So now, it’s exactly one month before my 26th birthday. Of course, I don’t have the same feeling as last year. I am very excited to celebrate my birthday. I’ve been planning it since October (haha!). I am not afraid to add another candle on my cake because I’ve learned that birthday wishes do come true if you just believe in yourself and in God.
But I had no choice, whatever I do, I cannot avoid my birthday. So, I celebrated it with my family. We ate dinner in one of our favorite restaurants. I pretend that everything was fine that time but if only they could read my mind, they would know that something was bothering me. Until, they told the waiter that it was my birthday and as a complement from the restaurant, the waiters sang happy birthday for me and gave me a small cake with a magic candle. When it was the time to blow the candle, I prayed a simple wish - “Lord, I want to be in Ireland..” As the magic candle kept burning even I continued blowing, I whispered repeatedly that only one wish I had on my silver birthday. “Lord, I want to be in Ireland.”
Just two days after my birthday, out of nowhere, an angel called me to check my yahoo mail. Surprisingly, there was an e-mail in my inbox with a subject, “Offer”. I opened it immediately and after I read it, I almost wanted to jump because of so much joy. KPMG Ireland offered me a job as an Audit Senior. The salary and relocation allowance was laid there. I was really euphoric. This is really a dream come true, an answered prayer, a wish granted. God is so good to me.
So now, it’s exactly one month before my 26th birthday. Of course, I don’t have the same feeling as last year. I am very excited to celebrate my birthday. I’ve been planning it since October (haha!). I am not afraid to add another candle on my cake because I’ve learned that birthday wishes do come true if you just believe in yourself and in God.
Pangarap na Bituin
Corny as it may sounds, but I really like this song. I feel inspired everytime i hear this song. Feeling ko kasi unti-unti ko ng nararating ang mga bituin! naks! ;-)
Saang sulok ng langit ko matatagpuan
Kapalarang 'di natitikman
Sa pangarap lang namasdan
Isang lingon sa langit at isang ngiting wagas
May talang kikislap, gabay patungo sa tamang landas
*Unti-unting mararating kalangitan at bituin
Unti-unting kinabukasan ko'y magniningning
Hawak ngayo'y tibay ng damdamin
Bukas naman sa aking paggising
Kapiling koy's pangarap na bituin
Ilang sulok ng lupa, may kubling nalulumbay?
Mga sanay sa isang kahig, isang tukang pamumuhayisang lingon sa langit, nais magbagong-buhay
Sa ating mga palad nakasalalay ang ating bukas
Bukas naman sa aking paggising
Kapiling ko'y pangarap na bituin
Saang sulok ng langit ko matatagpuan
Kapalarang 'di natitikman
Sa pangarap lang namasdan
Isang lingon sa langit at isang ngiting wagas
May talang kikislap, gabay patungo sa tamang landas
*Unti-unting mararating kalangitan at bituin
Unti-unting kinabukasan ko'y magniningning
Hawak ngayo'y tibay ng damdamin
Bukas naman sa aking paggising
Kapiling koy's pangarap na bituin
Ilang sulok ng lupa, may kubling nalulumbay?
Mga sanay sa isang kahig, isang tukang pamumuhayisang lingon sa langit, nais magbagong-buhay
Sa ating mga palad nakasalalay ang ating bukas
Bukas naman sa aking paggising
Kapiling ko'y pangarap na bituin
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