Wednesday, July 25, 2007

I'm tired

…of working too hard
…of thinking
… of caring about what other people think of me
…of breaking the silence
…of being a stranger to my own house
…of pleasing and understanding people

But I don’t want to concede, to stop because this is life. This is adulthood. It isn’t just a game I play when I was still a child where I can just say “Ayawan na!”. These are not just Math problems that have answer keys. These are real life trials. And I know this will not be given to me if He knows I can’t solve it.

Monday, July 23, 2007

Is this my life now?

I feel these four walls closing in
Face up against the glass
I'm looking out
Is this my life
I'm wondering
It happened so fast
How do I turn this thing around
Is this the bed I chose to make
It's greener pastures
I'm thinking about wide open spaces far away

All I want is the wind in my hair
To face the fear but not feel scared
Wish I could recklessly love like I'm longing to

I see the girl I wanna be
Riding bare-back, care-free
Along the shore
If only that someone was me
Jumping head-first, head-long
Without a thought
To act and damn the consequence
How I wish it could be that easy
But fear surrounds me like a fence
I wanna break free

Saturday, July 21, 2007

1st Anniversary - June 28, 2007

I've been drafting a post about my first year anniversary here in Ireland but obviously, and as usual, I wasn't able to do it. Blame it to my busy schedules and to an unforeseen circumstance that happened to me which I am thinking of discussing on another blog. :)

Anyway, time flies so fast. I didn't realize i've been here for a year. It feels like it was only yesterday when I was in the airport with the most special people in my life and now I am counting the days to go home and be with them again.

For all of these, I thank God. I know He was always with me for the past year. Never did i get sick since I came here which is so unusual for me being so sickly since childhood. He also gave me emotional strength to overcome the sadness of being away from my family.

I can say this is the best year in my life so far. And I am looking forward for what other experiences, lessons, people to meet, places to go that I will encounter during my stay here in Ireland.

(I still hope to post a more detailed blog about my stay here soon!)

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

Why???

Why there are questions that are left unanswered?

Why there are answers that are questioned?

Why things happen for a reason?

Why do we find reason for things that happen?