ramblings of a soon-to-be domesticated(?) goddess

i dont know what came into me today that when the clock stroke half five, i cleared my desk, packed my things, rode the kpmg bus and went home. i still have a lot of work to do, deadlines to meet but i feel so lazy and uninspired to finish my work. weird as it may sounds, but i just wanted to go home to cook authentic Filipino food, do my laundry and clean my room. gosh! i am starting to be domesticated.

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when i was cooking, i cant help but think how will my life be if he'll be here. i suddenly miss those times that i went home from work and he's just there waiting for me, welcoming me with warm hugs and kisses and the sumptuous dinner already served on the table. it was usually just a simple dish, mostly canned tuna or pork bbq or fried fish with his favorite fried rice then we ate it with our bare hands but i think i won't trade those dinner with the expensive steaks i had here. those are the best dinner for me because he cooked it for me and i was sharing it with him.

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even myself is wondering what's happening to me lately. i know it's a good thing but i don't know what triggers for me to be this in luuuvvv! there's no day that i didn't think of going home this november or december. almost every night i search for cheap flights so i can go home and be with him. sometimes, i think that this is all caused by the assault that happened to me. my head was hit hard and then it function normally. i told him what happened to me already and he said he wanted to find the girls when he comes here. not to have revenge but to thank them for making me come into my right senses.

here i am again...

it's sleeping time but i'm stuck on the internet looking for a cheap flight this december.
suddenly, i feel like i want to go home.

he was complaining to me that i neglected him the last time i went home. i was guilty of that. i was confused that time but now i want to make up for those lost times. i want to go home just for him, just to be with him.

before i get crazy again....

Longing

Damn! I miss you so much!
I want to be with you soon.
I want you to be here with me.
I want you that these words aren't enough to express how much I yearn for you.

sigh.. i better go to sleep before I lost my sanity.

Good night, baby! I just hope to see you in my dreams.

Ramblings of a Sleepyhead

I know it's office hours but I am sooo sleepy. I didn’t sleep well last night. It was too warm yet I'm still wrapped with my duvet because I feel unsecured/paranoid if I am just on my bed without any cover on my body. And also, I was dreaming of the Heroes season 1 episodes that I was watching before I went to sleep at 2am. I felt like I was one of them. Haha!
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I've heard a lot of good reviews about this Heroes series that's why I brought a pirated DVD copy from home (ssshhhh…). And yes, after six months it's only now that I'm watching it because it wont play in my computer before. Bad thing about pirated DVD copy! Anyway, so far it's an exciting and interesting series. Obviously the reason why I am still awake until 2am last night. :)
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I am looking forward for a lot of things in the next few months.

sleepless

i miss you here beside me...
i miss leaning in your arms...
i miss your soft and sweet kiss...
i miss your embrace...

i miss everything about you..

i miss being with you...

sigh... can't wait...

Child in Me

A lot of people thought that since I am an only child, I can do and have whatever I want. In short, a spoiled brat. False!

Yes, there are some perks for being an only child but having all the material things I wanted is not one of them. It's not that my parents deprived me but because they brought me up the right way i.e. just giving what I only need.

I remember my mom always say to me, "You can buy all you want if you're earning your own money."