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i should be still packing my things now but as usual i'm here stuck in my laptop... im tired from the holiday... and i feel so heavy... i dont know why... im alone... i feel sad... it's starting to sink in that i only have less than 72 hours to spend here...sigh

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i realized i do have a good memory. i still remember almost everything that happened, every conversation, sometimes even the date and the place. before, as i am the secretary in our class, i used to remember all the birthdays of my classmates in high school (49 of them). my friend said, we sometimes need to forget some things in the past so our brain can accomodate new memories. i do want to forget things that i did before/happened to me but that doesnt include the memories and experiences that makes me smile everytime i think about it.