exactly

Forget about the things you don't like about your life -- focus on the hopes and dreams you have for the future. The more you think about your problems or worries, the more power you are giving them over your life. So today, put a smile on your face and be confident about where you are headed. And if you can't feel confident, then just fake it until you do! If you can convince yourself of your value, then other people will be convinced of it, too.

wild horses

I feel these four walls closing in
Face up against the glass
I'm looking out, hmmm
Is this my life I'm wondering
It happened so fast
How do I turn this thing around
Is this the bed I chose to make
It's greener pastures I'm thinking about
Hmm, wide open spaces far away

my day :)

the good thing of living away from home is having extra eight hours of your special day. my birthday started with a call from Alvin yesterday (Jan 6) at 4pm GMT which is 12am GMT+8 back home and from then on, my phones were bombarded with birthday greetings and calls from different parts of the world.

i was thinking to just treat this day as an ordinary day so i wont feel emotional being alone on my birthday but i realised no! it's only once a year that i have this special day so i wore my new fabulous office dress, made up myself and went to the office. only few in the office knew about my birthday so even they didnt greet me, at least, they complemented me and my fab dress. vanity! :)

most of my day was just spent answering birthday greetings, drafting my birthday invitations. i hope there's a job code for birthday.

of course, my birthday is not complete without going to church to thank for another year He gave me and for telling Him my birthday wishes.

it's great for my last birthday as a single woman. i will surely miss this kind of good times when i get tied up but surely i will have great memorable times as well when that time comes... more special as it's with special person in my life. :)

But my day doesnt end on this, im so excited for my karaoke party on Saturday!

Thanks for the momentous day!

another senti night...

this is the longest time that i was alone and the more i realised that i really dont want to be alone...

i dont want to be single anymore...

i want to go home to a place where i can see your smile
i want to see new places where we can explore together
i want to eat on a table with food you cooked
i want to watch a show that we can laugh together
i want to sleep on a bed where i can feel your hugs

i want to close my eyes and feel your tender lips...

i want you...

whys??

why there are things

.....that you want to do but you can't?

....that you still do but you shouldn't?

....that you want to say but can't?

.....that you have said but you shouldn't?

.....that you have to let go but you can't?

.....that you still miss but you shouldn't?

oh why?

Feels like 16... again

ok ok im in the mood for a happy blog right now. thanks to youtube! :D

Eoghan Quigg!!!! He's sooo adorable! sooo cute! soo funny! soo talented! in short, sooooo irish! :D

He's always my favorite among the 12 finalists. So sad, he didnt win. But surely, he will have a career soon and maybe couple of years from now he will break a lot of women's heart. Watch out Zac Efron! Eoghan's hairstyle is much gorgeous than yours. lol.

Before, i was still thinking if i will name my first son, Seamus or Eoin. Now i decided it will be Eoghan! :D

Ok, back to my sleep now... ;p

cry baby

haay... i'm becoming a cry baby lately...

i cry just from listening to a song.

"oceans apart day after day, and i slowly go insane..."

i cry almost eveytime i chat with mama.

im crying just thinking of what happening right now....

sigh....i feel sad, lonely, scared, home sick, love sick.

fingers crossed

I never been so scared like this in my life.

I have a lot of plans and I'm not ready for this.

Lord God, I love this, please dont take it from me.

Please...

ebay newbie

i lost my first ebay auction. :(

i've been wanting that LV bag and been thinking how i will look with that bag for the past days and i lost it during the last minute of bidding. grrrr!

im an ebay newbie. soo frustrating.

hmmm why do i have to go through that torturing and frustrating last minutes of auction if i can just go to Brown Thomas and buy it personally? aaah... expect me in the store tomorrow. hmmp!

long longing....

why is it not that easy this time?

i survived a year and a half last time staying here, being away with him...
yet now it's only been a year but i'm already longing for him...

this is not easy... but i have to deal with it.
i have to wait for another few months...
i have to keep myself sane in this cold crazy time.